Lisa Pimental and Dani Harris

Lisa Pimental
Response

i weep in silence
By Dani Harris

Inspiration piece

•    alone in the night
•    i weep in silence
•    brushing the warm tears
•    from my face.
::   ::   ::
•    my heart
•    ~the one that loves him~
•    is black and blue
•    ….bruised.
•    so fragile
•    it may shatter
•    at the slightest touch.
::   ::   ::
•    my heart
•    ~the one in my body~
•    that beats to keep me alive
•    physically aches
•    ….isn’t that strange?
::   ::   ::
•    there’s a thick fog
•    swirling all around me
•    muting the voices of those speaking to me
•    separating me from the world
•    leaving me confused
•    ….unable to understand.
::   ::   ::
•    everything looks dim ~
•    there is a film
•    that clouds my eyes
•    so that i can’t see clearly
•    ….or even which way to go.
::   ::   ::
•    my sorrow is real
•    ~ whether justified or not ~
•    it overwhelms me,
•    it floods my soul,
•    it breaks my spirit.
•    i drown in
•    the hopelessness
•    of self-pity
•    and self-doubt.
::   ::   ::
•    I’ve become someone
•    i don’t recognize….
•    something i do not
•    want to be….
•    needy.
::   ::   ::
•    at least, that’s how he makes me feel
•    as if i’m asking for too much
•    as if i am selfish and greedy
•    as if he’s already given me so much
•    more than i deserve, in his eyes.
::   ::   ::
•    so…  if i need to be desired
•    if i need him to want to spend time with me
•    if i need him to want to tell me he loves me
•    if i need him to want me…
•    then that means i need too much.
::   ::   ::
•    i thought he loved me ~
•    i try to tell myself he still does
•    i thought he wanted me ~
•    but it faded too soon
•    i thought it was real ~
•    was it all just born of my desperation?
::   ::   ::
•    my heart has now broken
•    into a million pieces ~
•    it was too fragile
•    i was too fragile
•    i am not who i was
•    i am no one
•    i am nothing.
::   ::   ::
•    alone all the time now
•    i weep in silence
•    brushing the warm tears
•    from my face.
::   ::   ::
•    alone all the time now.